nobody gets a moody girl...
The reason I know so many Soulja Boy songs is because my two older cousins used to make me memorize them as a kid for their entertainment. One of them also adored Blink 182. I used to spend weekends with my cousins in Reno laying in the grass of some park listening to audios of songs they recorded on their flip phones.
We'd listen in the summer and we'd listen as the snow came down. I was 7 years old fascinated by the music my 17-year-old cousin used to find, most songs I can't even remember now.
Growing up, I wasn't exposed to much live music. All I had was the internet. My favorite bands by the age of 15 were Taking Back Sunday, Brand New, Modern Baseball, and the Front Bottoms. All distinctly east-coasters (this may matter later).
Pop-punk and emo had such an annoying kind of desire for more that fit so well within what I wanted. I hated living in a small town, I hated riding the bus, I hated hated hated everything. And there is simply no better feeling than screaming your favorite song on your walk home through the snow, trying to shake the cold and the anger off.
I moved to California a few years ago. And though I now had a distinct devotion to west-borne grunge, I still held onto those songs I loved as a kid. And I met a lot..... of new people.
Every guy I ever met from the east coast just impressed me, by the fact alone that they were from this magical music land I felt so like I belonged to once. and I, blinded by my adoration for whiny noise and led by my moody tendencies went falling falling falling at the simple sentence of something along the lines of "that's my favorite song" or "i've seen them live".
some moments were magic and others are now more-so wounds
falling in love with someone just because they like your favorite band is like,,,,,,,,,, "hitting someone's vape to know what it feels like to be their lungs"
(hahaha that was the best analogy i could think of forgive me...)
but truthfully,
it may sound amazingggg. but it actually doesn't matter a lot.
because between every song exchanged with some guy from there or here or wherever were still all my secrets. all the places i first heard the songs and how i came to love them. i could feel closer to people through music but i was careful not to feel complete. not fascinated either by places so far from me just because i couldn't touch them.
heartache and being in love now doesn't hold so much weight like it used to, when i used to be like "he's still listening to the album IIII showed him!!" now it's not like they still have a part of me. now it's just something i loved that still haunts
and besides i know reno has gone through punk and surf rock and indie rock moments but it's really turning its head into what i like to call "mood rock".
for moody girls from the west coast
where the cold is much much different
and so are the songs
